tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-167941652024-03-06T23:33:14.186-08:00change therapya blog by vancouver psychotherapist isabella mori.isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.comBlogger152125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1153457984910971212006-07-20T21:55:00.000-07:002006-09-10T09:46:19.043-07:00goodbye bloggerwell, people, i finally did it. i've moved my blog and now it is at<br /><br /><a href="http://www.moritherapy.org">www.moritherapy.org</a><br /><br />if you are currently subscribed to this blog, please go to www.moritherapy.org and subscribe via the subscription options you find in the right hand column. if you can't figure out how to do that, please call me (my number is on my web site at www.moritherapy.com) or email me at moritherapy at shaw dot ca.<br /><br />see you at the new site!<br /><br />isabellaisabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1153277234312709622006-07-18T19:42:00.000-07:002006-07-18T19:47:14.333-07:00goal setting - part 2continuing on from <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/07/goal-setting.html">yesterday's blog</a>, here is the rest of <a href="http://www.stevepavlina.com/articles/power-of-clarity.htm">steve pavlina's</a> (edited) words on goal setting<br /><br /><blockquote><span style="font-weight: bold;">goal setting is an activity</span><br /><br />setting clear goals is not a passive act. you must take direct conscious action. everything counts, and nothing is neutral. you are either moving towards your goals, or away from them.<br /><br />if you do nothing or if you act without clarity, then you are almost certainly a victim of "being outgoaled" - you are spending your time working on other people's goals without even knowing it. you are happily working to enrich your landlord, other businesses, advertisers, stockholders, etc.<br /><br />waiting for something to inspire you and hoping that the perfect outcome will just fall into your lap is nothing but a fantasy. clear decision making doesn't happen passively; you actually have to physically put in the time to make it happen.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">clear goals sharpen present-moment decisions</span><br /><br />your reality will not match your vision exactly. that's not the point. the point is for your vision to allow you to make clear daily decisions that keep you moving in the direction of your goals.<br /><br />when a commercial airliner flies from one city to another, it is off course over 90% of the time, but it keeps measuring its progress and adjusting its heading again and again. goal setting works the same way.<br /><br />maintain a clear list of goals not because that's actually where you'll end up but because it will give with tremendous certainty in deciding what you need to do today.<br /><br />you'll see a measurable difference in your life the very first day you establish clear, committed goals, even if your first few attempts aren't perfect. you'll be able to make decisions much more rapidly because you'll see how they'll either move you towards or away from your goals.<br /><br />on the eve of his death, walt disney had a reporter crawl into bed with him so he could share his vision for disney world, six years before its completion. when disney world finally opened, another reporter commented to walt's brother, roy, "it's too bad walt did not live to see this." roy replied, "walt saw it before we did.”<br /></blockquote>isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1153158873731210512006-07-17T10:46:00.000-07:002006-07-17T10:54:33.796-07:00goal settinglately, i've been following steve pavlina's blog. he's got some pretty strong things to say about personal development. below is a somewhat shortened and edited excerpt of <a href="http://www.stevepavlina.com/articles/power-of-clarity.htm">what he says about goal setting and decision making</a>.<br /><br /><br /><blockquote>bunker hunt, a man who rose from a bankrupt cotton farmer in the 1930s to a multi-billionaire when he died in the 1970s, was once asked during a tv interview what advice he could give to others who wanted to be financially successful.<br /><br />he responded by saying that it's not terribly difficult to be successful and that only two things are required.<br /><br />first, you must decide exactly what it is you want to accomplish.<br /><br />secondly, you must determine what price you'll have to pay to get it, and then resolve to pay that price.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">clear goals are essential</span><br /><br />study after study has shown how essential clear goals and objectives are to success. if you don't take the time to get really clear about exactly what it is you're trying to accomplish, then you're forever doomed to spend your life achieving the goals of those who do.<br /><br />if setting goals is so critically important, then why is it that so few people take the time to define exactly where they want to go?<br /><br />part of the reason is a lack of knowledge about how to set clear goals. but those who truly know what they want often outperform everyone else by an enormous degree.<br /><br />a frequent deterrent to goal setting is the fear of making a mistake. teddy roosevelt once said, "in any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing."<br /><br />setting virtually any goal at all is better than drifting aimlessly with no clear direction. the best way i know to guarantee failure is to avoid making clear, committed decisions.<br /><br />you're probably spending most of your time working to achieve other people's goals. the local fast food restaurant, tv advertisers, and the stockholders of the businesses you patronize are all very happy for that.<br /><br />many people assume that because they have a direction, they must therefore have goals, but this merely creates the illusion of progress.<br /><br />an example of the difference between a direction and a goal is the difference between the compass direction of northeast and the top of the eiffel tower in france. one is merely a direction; the other is a definite location.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">define goals in binary terms</span><br /><br />one critical aspect of goals is that they must be defined in binary terms. at any point in time, if i were to ask you if you had achieved your goal yet, you must be able to give me a definitive "yes" or "no" answer. “maybe” or “kind of” is not an answer.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">be detailed</span><br /><br />be as detailed as possible when setting goals. give specific numbers, dates, and times. make sure that each of your goals is measurable.<br /><br />either you achieved it, or you didn't. define your goals as if you already know what's going to happen. it's been said that the best way to predict the future is to create it.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">commit goals to writing</span><br /><br />goals must be in writing in the form of positive, present-tense, personal affirmations. don’t say “by the end of the year, i don’t want to feel alone anymore.” <br /><br />rather, say “on december 31, 2006, i look back with satisfaction on a time full of romance and friendship.”<br /><br />if you phrase your goals in future terms, you are sending a message to your subconscious mind to forever keep that outcome in the future, just beyond your grasp.<br /><br />avoid wishy-washy words like "probably," "should," "could," "would," "might," or "may" when forming your goals.<br /><br />and finally, make your goals personal. you cannot set goals for other people, such as, "a publisher will hire me by the end of the year." better say: "by december 1, 2006, i have started working in an interesting, enjoyable position with a north american publishing company, earning $55,000 a year."<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">objectify subjective goals</span><br /><br />what if you need to set subjective goals, such as improving your own level of self-discipline? how do you phrase such goals in binary terms? to solve this problem, i use a rating scale of 1 to 10.<br /><br />for instance, if you want to improve your self-discipline, ask yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, how do you rate your current level of self-discipline? then set a goal to achieve a certain specific rating by a certain date. this allows you to measure your progress and know with a high degree of certainty whether or not you've actually achieved your goal.<br /></blockquote><br />-------<br /><br />tomorrow we'll go to part 2, where steve talks about the actual activity of goal setting and how goal setting helps in making everyday decisions.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1153110177050224482006-07-16T21:18:00.000-07:002006-07-16T21:22:57.066-07:00getting support - part 2when we feel we don’t have enough support, of course there’s many ways we can “go out and get more”. however, often, when we have a problem like this, it’s not because we lack the know-how – it’s that there is something blocking us from reaching for what we need. <br /><br />when we don’t get the support we long for, it’s often because there are some voices in our heads saying things like, “they don’t have time”, “they’re not interested”, “they already have too much on their plates”, or “if they find out i need help with this, they’ll think i’m a loser.” <br /><br />when this happens, we can help ourselves by talking this over with someone who has already “proven” that they enjoy supporting others. <br /><br />here are some ideas on how you might increase your support network:<br /><br /><ul><li>your existing friends and family </li><li>assertiveness classes or self help books like <a href="http://www.amazon.ca/exec/obidos/ASIN/1595620036/701-1827761-3100339">how full is your bucket?</a> by grandfather-grandson team tom rath and donald o. clifton</li><li><a href="http://www.moritherapy.com/counselling-services.html">counselling</a></li><li>making a point of initiating and sustaining conversations with people who you don’t ordinarily talk with</li><li>getting involved in volunteering, support groups, community events</li><li>if you’re religious/spiritual, praying for more support</li><li>taking classes on anything you’re interested in</li><li>giving to others</li><li>becoming a regular somewhere – at a pub, a coffee house, an interesting online group</li><li>keeping in touch with people through phone calls, letters, emails</li></ul>important: as i said in a <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/07/go-ahead-be-happy.html">previous post</a>, there might be moments when you’re tempted to read such a list and roll your eyes, saying “that’s not much help, that’s all pretty obvious!” if that's the case, please stop and think for a moment. if you’re unhappy with the extent or quality of your social support and you haven’t done one of these things in the last three months, maybe it’s time to go back and try them – try the obvious! <br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152994686841800082006-07-15T13:13:00.000-07:002006-07-15T13:18:06.870-07:00getting supporttoday i thought i'd share with you a handout from a workshop i gave a little while ago on social support:<br /><br />this is part 1 - part 2 is tomorrow.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />social support<br /><br /><br />there’s the quality of supportive relationships – what type of relationships are they and how satisfied are we with them?<br /><br />then there’s the quantity – how many people “have our back”?<br /><br /><br /><br />research has found that social support can<br />· increase immunity (resistance to disease)<br />· help our emotional health<br />· reduce stress and illnesses associated with stress<br />· recovery from illness<br /><br /><br /><br />what’s your your current social support like?<br /><br /><br /><br />quality of social support<br /><br />how satisfied are you in your relationships with family and friends? in the majority of these relationships do you feel that you are:<br /><ul><li>understood </li><li>loved, or at least appreciated </li><li>heard </li><li>informed </li><li>useful </li><li>able to talk about your deepest problems (with at least some of your support people)</li><li>that you have a definite role or place </li><li>able to be yourself </li></ul><br /><br /><br />quantity of relationships<br /><br />how many close and/or dependable relationships do you have? consider relationships with:<br /><ul><li>family </li><li>friends </li><li>neighbours </li><li>coworkers </li><li>others </li><li>spend time with someone who doesn’t live with you? </li><li>talk to friends or relatives on the phone? </li><li>go to meetings, social clubs or other groups?</li></ul><br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152768032428538642006-07-12T22:10:00.000-07:002006-07-12T22:20:32.450-07:00mental illness in the workplace: good news!<a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/06/mental-illness-in-workplace.html">last month</a> i reported on yves magloe, a tenured professor at pasadena city college, who was let go because of a mental illness. as many of you know, it is extremely rare of a tenured professor to let go - tenure usually means lifetime employment. <br /><br />well, good news. <a href="http://hugoboy.typepad.com/hugo_schwyzer/2006/07/justice_good_ne.html">hugo schwyzer</a> reports that professor magloe was reinstated.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152683339952423042006-07-11T22:40:00.000-07:002006-07-11T22:48:59.970-07:00another video: about depression<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/youtube%20depression%20pic%20%282%29.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/320/youtube%20depression%20pic%20%282%29.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sAlSko9t1xI">here</a> we have another video, where you can hear me talk a little bit about depression and disconnectedness. this time it's on youtube. thanks, <a href="http://www.alphaglyph.com/">carol</a>, for doing this video!isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152602910821455482006-07-11T00:19:00.000-07:002006-07-11T00:28:30.846-07:00yogurt and self-righteousness<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.nandyala.org/mahanandi/images/yogurt/yogurt1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://www.nandyala.org/mahanandi/images/yogurt/yogurt1.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>plain yogurt – after you’ve opened the container, do you stir it or do you carefully take off what you need and leave the rest alone?<br /><br />that, my friend, is the big question.<br /><br />it’s a question that plagued me, so i complained, err, i mean, talked to a few people about it – with such passion, apparently, that i was challenged to write a blog entry about it.<br /><br />and it is, clearly, a question of seinfeldian proportions.<br /><br />here’s what happened: we were having dinner, eating perogies, and concerned with health as i am, i served plain organic yogurt instead of sour cream with it.<br /><br />one of my table mates apprehended the yogurt container, stuck the spoon in it and proceeded to (what seemed to me) violently stir, nay, disturb the yogurt that lay peacefully in that container.<br /><br />i flinched. and i spoke up. “what are you doing to that poor yogurt??!!” i shrieked.<br /><br />“ah – i’m stirring it?”<br /><br />“what has that yogurt done to you?”<br /><br />“ah – i’m just stirring it …”<br /><br />i’m sure i rolled my eyes. what a barbaric thing to do! yogurt is a living thing (i think), all these little yogurt bacteria sitting together in well-organized molecules, kind of like in their little yogurt house, and in comes this barbaric giant with his spoon and creates a soupy chaos!<br /><br />until that point, while my poor yogurt bacteria were bathed in chaos, i was safely ensconced in a comfy cocoon of yogurty self-righteousness. surely, walking into that yogurt like a horde of raping and pillaging warlords can't be right!<br /><br />and then my curiosity got the better of me. just like the barbaric yogurt giant, i couldn’t leave the story alone, i had to stir it up. i asked my friends <a href="http://www.endcancer.ca/site/TR?pg=personal&JServSessionIdr004=b3n94y3t61.app17a&amp;amp;fr_id=1110&px=1096064">haedy</a>, <a href="http://www.urbanista.ca/Blog.php">MJ</a> and timmie about their opinion.<br /><br />to my despair, they didn’t immediately take my side! worse, it was hard to get them excited about this important topic.<br /><br />so i tucked my tail between my legs and, on the occasion of blueberries and yogurt for dessert last night, brought the sorry results of my survey back to the barbaric yogurt giant. and he just laughed! he just laughed, and challenged me to write about it in my blog.<br /><br />i’m still of the opinion that yogurt should be left alone but – well, it appears that the yogurt giant is entitled to his opinion, too.<br /><br />what’s the morale?<br /><br />instead of speaking up about the rights of yogurt bacteria, i could have gritted my teeth, causing dental problems and constipation.<br /><br />instead of defending his stance, the barbaric yogurt giant could have played nicey-nice, cowering to my self-righteousness, which could have been the beginning of a horrible depression.<br /><br />instead of exploring the world for the wide array of yogurt opinions, i could have stayed marinated in my self righteousness, which eventually would have resulted in calcification of my brain cells.<br /><br />instead of letting me freely partake of their opinion (and slight lack of interest) on the topic at hand, my friends could have let me believe, by simply and absent-mindedly nodding to my dairy diary, that they agreed with me. the beginning of the end of our friendship?<br /><br />instead of taking my friends’ feedback back to the barbaric yogurt giant, i could have hid the truth from him, or could have even lied to him, saying that my friends agreed with me! this would slowly have poisoned me from the inside …<br /><br />what a horrible story this could have turned into!<br /><br />but we all talked freely with each other.<br /><br />and now, instead of dental problems, constipation, depression, calcified brain cells, dead friendships and slow poisoning – it’s just a blog.isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152399754072702932006-07-08T15:28:00.000-07:002006-07-08T16:02:34.140-07:00go ahead, be happy!the keys to happiness are available to anyone, says this article in <a href="http://www.livescience.com/humanbiology/060227_happiness_keys.html">lifescience.com</a> today:<br /><br /><blockquote>Money that lifts people out of poverty increases happiness, but after that, the better paychecks stop paying off sense-of-well-being dividends, research shows.<br /><br />One route to more happiness is called "flow," an engrossing state that comes during creative or playful activity, psychologist Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi has found. Athletes, musicians, writers, gamers, and religious adherents know the feeling. It comes less from what you're doing than from how you do it.<br /><br />Sonja Lyubomirsky of the University of California at Riverside has discovered that the road toward a more satisfying and meaningful life involves a recipe repeated in schools, churches and synagogues. Make lists of things for which you're grateful in your life, practice random acts of kindness, forgive your enemies, notice life's small pleasures, take care of your health, practice positive thinking, and invest time and energy into friendships and family.<br /><br />The happiest people have strong friendships, says Ed Diener, a psychologist at the University of Illinois</blockquote>okay, now we know it. not that we didn't know it before. so what's up? how come that, armed with this knowledge, we don't all go ahead and be happy?<br /><br />there's probably many reasons. one of them has fascinated me quite a bit lately. many of us have this great reluctance to do take seriously really ordinary, run-of-the-mill recipes. let's take the one about gratefulness, something i've discussed in <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/04/gratitude.html">other blog entries</a> before.<br /><br />here's a scenario:<br /><br />mick: "i'm so unhappy! what should i do?"<br />terry: "i write a gratitude list every day - 10 things i'm grateful for every day. wanna try that, too?"<br />mick: "geez, i've heard that one before. if it was so easy, everybody would be happy!"<br />terry: "exactly, it's easy, and if everybody did it, they'd be a lot happier!"<br />mick: "oh, leave me alone with these mom-and-pop ideas. you have no idea how complicated my life is!"<br />terry: "ok, before i leave you alone with this, can i ask you just one question. have you tried gratitude lists before?"<br />mick: "yes! i did one once, and it didn't work! it didn't make me happy!"<br />terry: "oh. well, i guess for me it works because i do it every day."<br />mick: "it's easy for you. you are already happy!"<br /><br />so mick is unhappy. he uses words that sound like he's looking for advice. then terry comes along with an idea and mick turns it down. it's because a) maybe he wasn't even looking for advice; b) the advice is too "easy", which c) devaluates the depth of his unhappiness.<br /><br />mick has been unhappy for so long that his unhappiness has become quite important. he does not wish for his unhappiness to be devalued.<br /><br />he expresses the depth of his unhappiness by saying that his life is "complicated". because he feels unheard (and because he probably has been unheard for many years), he is not interested in what terry has to say/offer. also, mick thinks that because the simplicity of the remedy does not match the depth of his unhappiness, it cannot work.<br /><br />also, because he has used this remedy once and it did not work right away, he feels justified in not trying it again. it didn't work, and it does not match the depth of his depression - so why try it again?<br /><br />unfortunately, mick does not know that this remedy does indeed work in most situations if applied on a consistent basis. he doesn't know it because it's an experiential thing.<br /><br />remember when you were 8 years old and you saw people kissing and you thought, "eeeeek, what a gross thing to do!" and then when you were 17, you couldn't get enough of it?<br /><br />experiencing the cumulative effect of gratitude lists (and other ordinary remedies) is a bit like that. it's as simple as a kiss. and can be as life changing.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="http://www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152330409048538472006-07-07T20:35:00.000-07:002006-07-08T14:23:06.346-07:00gender identity: shapeshiftinga <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/06/gender-freedom.html">few weeks ago</a>, i spoke of the book <span style="font-style: italic;">self organizing men</span>, a collection of literary works promoted in <a href="http://www.homofactuspress.com/2006/06/participatory_art_experience_6.htm">jay sennet’s blog</a>, around the theme of FtM’s – people who were born biologically female and transition towards male.<br /><br />here is another work of art in it, a jewel of a poem. it weaves in and out and around the many levels of experience of its author, female-to-male queer activist <a href="http://www.unm.edu/%7Eerbaugh/QueerFall03/projects/Clare.htm">eli clare</a> who starts off the poem by noting the similarity between two different kinds of drug use:<br /><br /><blockquote>I lay out syringe, alcohol pad, vial: a ritual<br />connecting me to junkies. Draw the<br />testosterone,<br />and push needle deep through skin into<br />muscle.<br /></blockquote><br />all of this happens in (inside the temporal space of) spring, another moment of transition:<br /><br /><blockquote>Open the windows, forsythia spilling its dense yellow.</blockquote><br />but not much of this poem happens directly “inside”; much of it is in-between. eli is “a shapeshifter” – as a transgendered (transgendering?) person, as a person with cerebral palsy, as an activist, an anti-hierarchist. shapeshifters, it occurs to me, are, or at least can be, magicians: wise people, shamans, those who dare to travel across dangerous and forbidden boundaries, back and forth and back and forth, cross-pollinating worlds.<br /><br />shapeshifting as a magician but also very concretely, <span style="font-style: italic;">very</span> physically:<br /><br /><blockquote>Voice cracks.<br />Stubble glints.<br /><br />Body begins<br /></blockquote><br />and if there’s a lot of flying back and forth between worlds, it gets confusing, even for the magician:<br /><br /><blockquote>Crip skin,<br />white skin:<br />which stories<br />do I tell<br />the best?<br /><br /></blockquote>… and tiring:<br /><blockquote>... here at the confluence river and ocean collide—current rushing head long, waves pushing back—stones tumble one against another; logs drift and roll. Tell me: where in this hiss and froth might I lay myself down?<br /></blockquote>where? where could eli lay himself down? can he lay himself down before he lays his female identity down (to sleep? to rest?) can <span style="font-style: italic;">any</span> magician ever lay himself down for long?<br /><br />and while i understand that there needs to be rest for this body and mind, i am touched, tickled, by the poem's freshness: all the almost haiku-like references to spring, the walking down the street with kids greeting him, rushing rivers, tumbling logs – there is so much fresh, breezy movement; while this need for rest is understandable – is rest really interesting to eli, or will he, after a short moment of catching his breath, spring up again to see what’s around yet another corner?<br /><br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="http://www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152208175736294722006-07-06T10:06:00.000-07:002006-07-06T10:49:35.810-07:00psychopathsa few weeks ago i had a conversation with someone about psychopaths. since i can't remember for the life of me who i had this conversation with (hmmmm ... should i make my next post about memory?), i thought i'd post here a link to a very interesting article about this topic, and hopefully that person is among my readers.<br /><br />the article is about <a href="http://psych.wisc.edu/newman/">joseph newman</a>, a psychologist at the university of wisconsin. here is an excerpt:<br /><br /><blockquote>[Newman] believes that psychopathy is essentially a type of learning disability or "informational processing deficit" that makes individuals oblivious to the implications of their actions when focused on tasks that promise instant reward. Being focused on a short-term goal, Newman suggests, makes psychopathic individuals incapable of detecting surrounding cues such as another person's discomfort or fear.<br /><br />In a study he repeated in different prison populations, for instance, Newman examined how quickly psychopathic and non-psychopathic individuals respond to a series of mislabeled images, such as a drawing of a pig with the word "dog" superimposed on it. Researchers flashed each image and then timed how long it took for subjects to name what they saw.<br /><br />Over and over again, Newman found that non-psychopathic subjects subconsciously stumbled on the misleading labels and took longer to name the images. But psychopathic subjects barely noticed the discrepancy and consistently answered more quickly.<br /><br />Newman says the result is one instance of how psychopathic individuals have difficulty processing peripheral cues, even when those cues are entirely obvious to everyone else. Furthermore, the study task didn't involve any of the emotions that people commonly associate with psychopathy, such as anger or a lack of fear. So the fact that psychopathic subjects barely noticed the wrongful labels - even in the absence of emotional cues - supports the idea that a psychological deficit might be at play.</blockquote><br />read more <a href="http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/medicalnews.php?newsid=46444&nfid=crss">here ...</a><br /><br />i had often thought that at least in some instances, psychopathy might involve something like what newman proposes. <br /><br />i have worked in prison environments, and would not say i have met many psychopaths there - and the ones that i did meet were actually not the ones with the most serious crimes. <br /><br />particularly, i remember one person who had shot someone (yup, compared to some of the other offenders, that wasn't very serious), who then ended up in a wheelchair. <br /><br />the offender had a complete and quite baffling lack of interest (never mind concern or even compassion) for the victim. it was as if there was a hole where that concern would normally be found in other people. <br /><br />i had noticed that before in other people who i wouldn't necessarily call sociopaths or psychopaths, but who still would show a strange lack of connection in certain situations. <br /><br />the first time i noticed that was with someone who nowadays might be classified as a sex addict. he was very charming, very intelligent - but completely nonchalant about the far-reaching effects his addiction had on the people around him. having worked with people battling with addiction, i find that unusual; often people with addictions are quite uncomfortable about the fallouts from their behaviour. but not so with that person. i remember thinking that it seemed like a part of his psyche had been amputated.<br /><br />if you're interested in a more academic treatment on the topic of psychopathy, you might want to read this article by <a href="http://www.bbsonline.org/Preprints/OldArchive/bbs.mealey.html">linda mealey</a>. it's a little old but still quite interesting.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152163576760988012006-07-05T22:24:00.000-07:002006-07-05T22:26:16.780-07:00understanding spammersokay, here is something that i absolutely have to get off my chest:<br /><br />what goes on in the head of spammers?<br /><br />and what, specifically, is the process of coming up with these amazing names, like<br /><br />abhorrence p. versifying<br />amateurism g. causal<br />ambiguities u. magnetos<br />annihilation j. silliness<br />arnulfo mcleod<br /><br />(more at the end of this entry – i don’t want to spam your reading time with the remaining 41 names, from demetrius column to zelma mooney)<br /><br />so, someone tell me how this works.<br /><br />is there are spammers’ name factory? if so, how does it work? is it automated, or is it a dingy old industrial complex in manila, where 13-year-olds write their fingers bloody with name after name for a starvation wage?<br /><br />are spammers so bored with what they do that they entertain themselves with coming up with these names?<br /><br />is there perhaps a secret spammers’ naming olympics, or some kind of grammy award for the most inventive spammer’s name? <br /><br />or is it something you learn in spammers school?<br /><br />or are they perhaps all high on VI*a*GRA or h OO dia?<br /><br />one last thing: do these people know the words they’re using – i mean, are they even aware of the hilarity of these names? think about the irony of “annihilation j. silliness” sending you a completely inane message.<br /><br />on the other hand, “experiencing a. pit” probably knows what she/he/it is doing.<br /><br />i tried to find some material on the psychology of spammers and haven’t come up with anything at all. maybe i need to dig deeper. considering how big (and irritating) spamming is in our internet lives, it’s suprising that i didn’t find anything yet.<br /><br />anyways, here’s the rest of the names. <br /><br />demetrius column<br />democritus mateo<br />disbarring f. lunatic<br />emulsified u. carrier<br />eridanus h. sweatier<br />exorcized h. scuttle<br />experiencing a. pit<br />fry dempster<br />genaro lovett,<br />godiva stanley<br />guadalupe harper;<br />harebrained l. ramrodded<br />heidi champagne;<br />highchairs p. polyphemus<br />hohenstaufen v. sicking<br />inflorescence b. afghan.<br />jernigan fletcher,<br />jocundity h. sulkiness<br />joris dng<br />kermit clinton<br />leaching k. criming<br />lofting c. amendable<br />maillol l. shrews<br />microwaving c. grammes<br />monomania i. buxom<br />morocco s. yanking<br />morse k. commencement<br />pacifically t. gloss<br />pauperism p. perimeter<br />pocahontas e. maharajas<br />propitiate f. mockingly<br />schlessman lankford<br />shrub b. nipples<br />steers q. bloodhound<br />stress f. obelisks<br />trammelled s. intercessions<br />vercingetorix brick<br />yesenia hopkins,<br />young alford,<br />zaida coxum,<br />zelma mooney<br /><br /><br />isabella mori <br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1152077776067134912006-07-04T22:35:00.000-07:002006-07-04T22:36:16.070-07:00nonviolent communicationa challenge issued by the <a href="http://www.cnvc.org/index.htm">nonviolent communication</a> site:<br /><blockquote style="color: rgb(102, 102, 0);">The Center for Nonviolent Communication (CNVC) would like there to be a critical mass of people using Nonviolent Communication language so all people will get their needs met and resolve their conflicts peacefully.<br /><br />10 things we can do to contribute to internal, interpersonal, and organizational peace:<br /><br />(1) Spend some time each day quietly reflecting on how we would like to relate to ourselves and others.<br /><br />(2) Remember that all human beings have the same needs.<br /><br />(3) Check our intention to see if we are as interested in others getting their needs met as our own.<br /><br />(4) When asking someone to do something, check first to see if we are making a request or a demand.<br /><br />(5) Instead of saying what we DON'T want someone to do, say what we DO want the person to do.<br /><br />(6) Instead of saying what we want someone to BE, say what action we'd like the person to take that we hope will help the person be that way.<br /><br />(7) Before agreeing or disagreeing with anyone's opinions, try to tune in to what the person is feeling and needing.<br /><br />(8) Instead of saying “No,” say what need of ours prevents us from saying “Yes.”<br /><br />(9) If we are feeling upset, think about what need of ours is not being met, and what we could do to meet it, instead of thinking about what's wrong with others or ourselves.<br /><br />(10) Instead of praising someone who did something we like, express our gratitude by telling the person what need of ours that action met.</blockquote>which one do you find easy? which one seems hard?<br /><br />i find this one a bit challenging: "if we are feeling upset, think about what need of ours is not being met, and what we could do to meet it, instead of thinking about what's wrong with others or ourselves." when i'm really upset and a solution does not easily present itself, i <span style="font-style: italic;">do</span> end up thinking about my unmet needs - but really only once i'm feeling backed into a corner.<br /><br />remembering that all humans have the same needs - well, that's always been pretty obvious to me. i think in many ways it goes even further: plants, animals, to a degree even things have needs, too: to be cared for, to be treated with respect.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151993880220105792006-07-03T23:13:00.000-07:002006-07-03T23:18:00.236-07:00homilies i likenever pass up a good opportunity to shut up.<br /><br />it takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.<br /><br />the best way to stop feeling like a liar is to stop lying.<br /><br />"the bad thing about self-pity is that it gives me permission to do absolutely nothing."<br /><br />"don't believe everything you think."<br /><br />right actions for the future are the best apologies for wrong ones in the past.<br /><br />it is not good to pray unless we are willing to accept god's answers.<br /><br />isolation is a darkroom for developing negatives.<br /><br />"thank you, god, for the beautiful day i'm going to have if i can just get rid of my fucking attitude."<br /><br />"i had a very long childhood"<br /><br />peace is not something you wish for, it is something you make, something you do, something you are and it is something you give away<br /><br /><br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151709151192202922006-06-30T16:03:00.000-07:002006-06-30T16:12:31.223-07:00a video!a few weeks ago, my friend carol from alphaglyph productions did an interview with me. here is a picture from it:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/isabella%20carol%27s%20interview2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/320/isabella%20carol%27s%20interview2.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br />and you can see the video on the <a href="http://alphaglyph.podomatic.com/entry/2006-06-29T14_26_23-07_00">alphaglyph</a> podcast site. you can try either the "download" or the "play" button. you might need the <a href="http://www.apple.com/quicktime/download/win.html">quick time with itunes plugin</a> for it (for some systems, quick time alone doesn't seem to do the trick).<br /><br />this video is on the intimacy of the therapeutic relationship.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151615895041136602006-06-29T13:59:00.000-07:002006-06-29T14:18:15.176-07:00overcoming codependencyonce in a while i post <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/01/poetry-therapy.html">poetry</a> here. it helps process our thoughts and feelings.<br /><br />but there's no limit to the art forms we can use to express ourselves. here is the drawing of a friend of mine, literally depicting what's going on inside his head, inspired by a list of <a href="http://www.mental-health-today.com/articles/codepen.htm">codependent behaviours</a> he found on the web:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/codependency.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/400/codependency.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />dealing with the challenges life throws at us by trying to control (manipulate?) others is an understandable and very common coping mechanism. fortunately, my friend is someone who does not want to just cope anymore; he wants to <span style="font-style: italic;">live</span>.<br /><br />this very insightful drawing is part of his journey towards living a more conscious life where he deals lovingly with himself and those around him. the illusion that we can make others think, feel or act in a certain way is very seductive and can be so subtle. often we don't even know we labour under this illusion. breaking free from it feels risky and scary - but it does lead to freedom, freedom for everyone concerned.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151518450251540702006-06-28T11:02:00.000-07:002006-06-28T11:14:10.623-07:00alternative thought records, pt IIa continuation from yesterday's blog regarding <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/06/tool-alternative-thought-record.html">alternative thought records</a>:<br /><br />this is an example of using alternative thought records. in the beginning, it can usually only be done afterwards. with time, one can get practiced enough to try and do it right in the moment.<br /><br />this is an example of debriefing the next day:<br /><br /><br />situation:<br />harry received an email from his stepmother, where she hints that harry isn’t spending enough time with her. after all she’s done for him, stopping by her place a few times a week after work is the least thing he can do, she claims.<br /><br />when did it happen?<br />last night.<br /><br />who was involved?<br />harry, his stepmother, and his partner<br /><br />where did it happen?<br />at home<br /><br />what happened?<br />having just come home from another exhausting day at work, harry read this email, and what little energy he had left totally went out of him. instead of making dinner as he had promised, he just lay down on the couch for an hour, staring at the wall. trying to be understanding, his partner went ahead and made dinner but it was obvious that he was not pleased, especially since harry didn’t explain what had happened.<br /><br />feelings:<br /><br />at first, in rapid succession: angry, frustrated, guilty and ashamed. then, nothing. numbness.<br /><br />intensity of feelings: anger: 80%, frustration 50%, guilt and shame: 80%. numbness: felt like 100%.<br /><br />automatic thoughts:<br /><ul><li>what the %#$& ???</li><li>can i ever do right by her?</li><li>she’s right, she has done so much for me</li><li>i’m such a rotten son. and she hardly ever says anything anymore about me being gay. i should be grateful. i’m such a stinker for getting mad when she sends me these emails.</li><li>i’m such a loser. i promised harry i’d make dinner and what am i doing? nothing!</li><li>the numbness has no words, really, it’s just this freaky dull roar, like being caught all alone in a huge grey machine.</li></ul><br />cognitive traps or distortions:<br />some cognitive distortions in these thoughts:<br /><ul><li>overgeneralization: can i ever do right by her?</li><li>shoulds: i should be grateful</li><li>labeling: i’m such a stinker</li></ul><br />alternative thought:<br /><br /><ul><li>i’m angry at mom right now. that’s the way i feel right now. i can live with that.</li><li>i feel exhausted right now. and i want to make dinner. i don’t need to feel overwhelmed by this. i’ll just put one foot in front of the other.</li><li>i notice this feeling of numbness coming on. being numb has never done anything for me. i’ll remember to focus on the feeling in my hands while i make dinner – that usually keeps me from falling into numbness.</li></ul><br />feelings now: accepting (80%), clarity (70%)<br /><br />(if these alternative thoughts would have been applied right at the moment of the situation happening, this is what the feelings might have been:<br /><br />angry: 40%, exhausted 50%, accepting 90%, hopeful 55%, present 60%, alert 70%<br /><br />compare this to the previous list: intensity of feelings: anger: 80%, frustration 50%, guilt and shame: 80%. numbness: felt like 100%)<br /><br /><br />this is an example for someone who is dealing with depression. however, an alternative thought exercise can be helpful in many different situations. as we can see, most moods (such as depression here) are a complex interplay between many different, and sometimes opposite, thoughts, feelings and actions.<br /><br />this exercise is in some ways similar to the what i discussed in a previous blog entry, <a href="http://vancouvertherapy.blogspot.com/2006/04/transformations.html">anger transformed</a>.<br /><br />why don't you try one of them next time you're facing a difficult situation and let me know how it goes?<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151449310834168452006-06-27T15:54:00.000-07:002006-06-27T16:01:50.893-07:00a tool: alternative thought recordcognitive therapies, which focus on examining and “repairing” one’s thoughts, are often seen as the best way to deal with depression. while i believe that the tools that cognitive therapies provides are just one among many ways to help with <a href="http://www.moritherapy.com/help-for-depression.html">depression</a>, they can nevertheless be quite useful. so here is a tool from this tool box – enjoy it!<br /><br />i’ll post it in two postings – the first is the “recipe”, and the one i’ll post tomorrow is an example of an application. (and thanks to <a href="http://www.depressionforums.org/forums/index.php?showtopic=2957">depression forums</a> for providing this tool).<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">alternative thought record</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">situation</span>: describe an event or situation, that occurred within the last few<br />hours, or days at the most, in which you experienced emotional distress.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">when did it happen?<br /></span><span style="font-style: italic;">who was involved?</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">where did it happen?</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">what happened?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">feelings</span>: describe the feelings that arose at that time. rate the intensity of your feelings from 0-100%.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">automatic thoughts</span>: list one or two of the most intense thoughts or images that you had at the time of the event.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">cognitive traps or distortions</span>: examine your thoughts and images<br />to see if there are cognitive distortions (<a href="http://www.ta-tutor.com/webpdf/ram174.pdf">cognitive traps</a> are distorted thoughts such as all-or-nothing thinking, should statements and blaming)<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">alternative thought</span>: describe an alternative, balanced way of thinking about this event. notice the cognitive distortions in your original thinking, and create a new statement that balances or eliminates those distortions.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">rate</span> the intensity of you feelings now, from 0-100%.<br /><br />tomorrow: an application of this tool.<br /><br />take care!<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151358961999002762006-06-26T14:55:00.000-07:002006-06-26T22:05:13.180-07:00addiction, shame and secrets<a href="http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/medicalnews.php?newsid=45702&nfid=crss">medicalnews</a> reports this today:<br /><br /><blockquote>An article published in the recent issue of Psychological Science ... demonstrates that individuals have a strong tendency to eat only a single unit of food, regardless of the unit's size or caloric value.<br /><br />The authors conducted experiments with offering free food in public areas, varying the size of the product unit and the size of the serving utensil ...<br /><br />The results demonstrate an identifiable unit bias, as passersby tended to take a single unit or spoonful of food without consideration for its size or quantity. As tests were conducted both within eyesight of others and in a more discreet location, the bias in favor of consuming a single unit cannot be attributed solely to the avoidance of perceptible gluttony ...</blockquote>well, that may be the case for some people. however, this last sentence reminds me how little people know about the inner workings of people struggling with addictions. a "discreet location" would still not be safe enough for many people with a food addiction.<br /><br />the vast majority of people struggling with addictions function quite well in the "normal" world. part of this functioning involves an intimate relationship between addiction, shame, and intricate techniques designed to conceal the addiction.<br /><br />for many overeaters, a "discreet location" in a public place will still bring forth the need to appear a normal eater. the deep shame over the addiction would be much stronger than the apparent safety of such a discreet location. many overeaters will only overeat in the privacy of their homes, often alone, maybe even with the curtains drawn.<br /><br />i have met food addicts who had become experts at climbing out of bed, getting dressed and driving off in the middle of the night without barely making a sound, so as to not wake up anyone in the house and alert them to their excursion to a 24 hour convenience store.<br /><br />of course, this often turns into a vicious cycle. the person wants to eat, eat, eat - but not be seen eating. so she creates a bubble of isolation around herself. this isolation is depressing, and the depression is then medicated with more food - and thus the cycle continues.<br /><br />ironically, then, eating in public can be the first step towards recovery for some people. eating that second chocolate bar in public, or finishing off the big bag of chips for all to see, can be a healing experience. maybe the eating behaviour is still there, but at least the layers of shame and hiding are taken off.<br /><br />isabella more<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151173384665094952006-06-24T11:09:00.000-07:002006-06-24T11:23:04.716-07:00my birthday wish<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/buddha%20gold.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/320/buddha%20gold.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br />today is my birthday.<br /><br />i have a wish.<br /><br />at this time, there are a few people in my life who are deep in the throes of suffering.<br /><br />my wish is that whoever reads this, may send good thoughts to my friends, to any friend you know who is suffering.<br /><br />in the words of the <a href="http://www.opendharma.org/instructions_webpages/lovingkindnessmeditation.htm">buddha</a><br /><br /><blockquote>may you be free from danger and fear.<br />may you be peaceful, happy, and free from suffering.<br />may you live with ease<br /></blockquote>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151082864527824862006-06-23T10:11:00.000-07:002006-06-23T10:14:24.543-07:00fantasy vs. real worldan interesting chart from the <a href="http://poorinspirit.blogspot.com/2006/04/addicts-thoughts-on-addiction-in.html">poor in spirit</a> blog:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/addictive%20chart%20poorinspirit%20blogspot.0.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/400/addictive%20chart%20poorinspirit%20blogspot.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1151021269546811432006-06-22T16:52:00.000-07:002006-06-22T17:07:49.560-07:00gender freedomas my dear readers know, one of the blogs i watch is <a href="http://www.dailydoseofqueer.com/"> daily dose of queer,</a> where i found a link to <a href="http://www.homofactuspress.com/2006/06/participatory_art_experience_6.htm">jay sennett’s blog</a>. he’s looking for bloggers to review a new anthology called “self organizing men” – women transitioning into malehood (or FtM, as it’s often called). good for him to use <a href="http://www.gapingvoid.com/Moveable_Type/archives/001642.html">blogvertising</a> to get this material on the market.<br /><br />i agreed to be one of his guinea pigs, and am i ever glad i did.<br /><br />first i have to confess that i was not sure what to expect, and was afraid i might stumble into the badly-mumbled outpourings of a confused twenty-year-old.<br /><br />well, i was wrong. <span style="font-style: italic;">i can’t be male</span> by <a href="http://www.amptoons.com/blog/">nick kiddle</a> is very well written. every sentence is clean and clear, so the reader can completely concentrate on the story. as a writer, i want what nick’s got!<br /><br />the piece traces nick’s travels and travails as he (i’ll refer to nick as a male here, hope that’s okay with you, nick) winds his way through the landscape of gender identity. <br /><br />unfortunately, not everyone sees it as a landscape.<br /><br />i guess we should be grateful that we’ve moved out of gender identity being a wasteland of two camps – male or female. at least there is a recognition now that some of us have landed in the wrong camp and need to move, so now we have four camps – female to male, male to female, female, male.<br /><br />but really, i want my world to consist of more than four camps. i want a landscape with flowers of different hues of colours, many paths to journey along, hidden nooks and crannies to explore.<br /><br />nick, too, wants freedom around his gender identity. there are moments when he identifies as a man, and others when he finds it useful to be a woman. one of the things that are important to nick is to have children, and children of his own. this is why, for now at least, he decides to stay in a female body.<br /><br />i can’t wait to hear how other people react when they read nick’s account of meeting a psychiatrist who, instead of assisting nick in building more supportive relationships, cannot tear himself away from a morbid fascination with nick’s diagnosis of gender dysphoria. my first reaction was anger – i just wanted to go and slap that ignorant jerk – and when i got to the point where mr. psychiatrist sits back, smug in his “knowledge” that nick is “really” a woman, i just started crying.<br /><br />this is not just the story about one of those transgendered people, somewhere off in a far corner of our safely heterosexual world. it’s the story of all of us who need to be free to explore who we are, free to change, free to express ourselves.<br /><br />thank you, jay, and thank you, nick.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1150920774992932632006-06-21T13:08:00.000-07:002006-06-21T13:14:37.890-07:00understanding "enough"just as hope can be seen from opposing viewpoints, i think the term "enough" can be seen from different points of view as well.<br /><br />let’s take these three examples:<br /><br />“you don't need another blanket, joe. it’s not that cold – these two blankets are enough.”<br /><br />“don’t worry about making every page perfect. remember, it’s a draft; what you have here is great, it’s definitely good enough.”<br /><br />“no thanks, i don’t need another helping of pasta; i have enough.”<br /><br />in the first scenario, joe feels he needs more but he is dismissed by someone who feels she is in a position to adequately assess joe's needs (and perhaps assess them better than joe himself).<br /><br />in the second scenario, someone aspires to be perfect and she is reassured; the situation does not call for perfection, and what’s already there is more than adequate.<br /><br />the person in the third scenario has a good sense for just exactly how much he needs; that need has been fulfilled, and he effortlessly states what his boundaries are: “i have enough.”<br /><br />we could say that the first situation is about deprivation; the second one is about perfectionism and the third is about balance.<br /><br />what do we want to have in our lives? deprivation, perfectionism or balance?<br /><br />it is interesting to note that in the first two scenarios, both times, it is someone else who assesses what’s enough. only in the third, it’s the person himself who decides what’s enough.<br /><br />we often have uneasy feelings about the word “enough”. often it’s around the phrase “good enough.” perhaps the next time this unease crops up, you can ask yourself, who is making the decision whether something or someone is good enough? and if it’s you who seems to be making that decision and you still feel uneasy, you can ask yourself, “is that really me talking, or is that someone else’s voice inside me? my mother? my teacher? is that voice still valid?”<br /><br />let’s get to the point where <em>you</em> decide what’s good enough.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="http://www.moritherapy.com">counseling in vancouver </a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1150750404629094562006-06-19T13:50:00.000-07:002006-06-19T13:53:24.650-07:00understanding hopehope is one of those things that can go both ways. let me first tell you about what i believe to be the negative aspects of hope, and then about the bright side of hope.<br /><br />the carrot and the stick<br /><br />hope can be the carrot of the famous "carrot and the stick". it can be that delicious something in the future that is always dangled in front of us but which can never (or rarely) be attained. "i love you but i'm not ready for commitment" - ever heard that? what that often means is "if you just stick around long enough - because YOU love ME, don't you? - then some time in the future i might just be ready to get married." but the person who dreams that their lover will eventually come around will often not have their hopes fulfilled. in the meantime, this person has spent a lot of energy wishing for something that might never happen - and when it finally becomes obvious that it won't happen, more energy will go down the drain of disappointment.<br /><br />getting lost in the future<br /><br />this is closely related to the fact that hope is about the future. planning and thinking about the future is a good thing but when we overdo it, the precious moments of the present can get lost. we often take the useful, rational planning for the future that is often needed and overextend it into wishful thinking. the subject of weddings comes up again: i'm sure you've all met people who have turned wedding preparations into weeks and months of headaches over obsessive planning, in the hopes that they will have the perfect wedding. in the midst of all that planning, precious relationships with people in the here and now can get damaged for years to come.<br /><br />ok, now for the good news.<br /><br />when i think of my personal relationship with hope, the words that come up are reality, affirmation, work, and open hands. <br /><br />reality<br /><br />i firmly believe that to a large degree, we make our own reality. quick, think of the first 10 words that come up when i say the word "china". <br /><br />----<br /><br />these ten words constitute an important part of your personal reality about china. whenever you hear or see the word "china", the people, things and concepts that these words stand for will colour how you deal with any new information about china that you receive. the memory of these people, things and concept have come to you because of your unique experiences, thoughts and feelings. since we have a great degree of control over our experiences, thoughts and feelings, we therefore have a great degree of control over our reality.<br /><br />affirmation<br /><br />hope is a large part of my reality. so just as you have these particular 10 words that you immediately think when the word "china" crops up - whenever i hear someone speaking of a problem, a challenge, a sadness, the concept of hope immediately crops up for me. it's almost as if i insist that there is hope. maybe it's because when i grew up, my mother would often say, "the only thing you can rely upon nowadays are miracles". as long as a person is not dead, there is hope. this i affirm.<br /><br />hard work<br /><br />this hope is not an empty, sweet-talking hope. because the next thing to do is to get up and see where that hope is, what it looks like, what avenues lead to it. <br /><br />that is hard work. i've had a number of clients who in the beginning of working with me just couldn't handle that. i ask them then whether i can hold their hope for now. i'll hold their hope until they're ready to shoulder the work. i think of a client, for example, who had lost hope of having a connection with god. i held that hope for him for over a year, gently reminding him of it once in a while, and then slowly, slowly, he came and picked it up. but it wasn't easy. there were lots of aborted prayers, uncomfortable meditation sessions, fearful dreams about what that god might look like.<br /><br />open hands<br /><br />it seems important to me to hold that hope with open hands. if i close my hands on it, it gets all squished up and turns into something else (wishful thinking? crazy fantasies?) i want to hold that hope, fully aware of all the possibilities it entails: that it might come true, that it might come true in a way that i am at this time unable to imagine, that it might not come true. yes, that's a paradox: on the one hand i totally insist on the hope, on the other i am fully aware that it may not be fulfilled. i don't know what it is - it just seems that this openness is the oxygen that hope needs in order to breathe and grow. <br /><br />so ... in the end, yes, i fully believe in hope - as long as it's sweet, gentle hope, hope full of question marks and possibilities.<br /><br />isabella mori<br /><a href="www.moritherapy.com">counselling in vancouver</a>isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16794165.post-1150687787566554842006-06-18T14:20:00.000-07:002006-06-18T20:30:00.736-07:00my latest newsletterhi - thought i'd post my latest "what's new" email here ... here we go ...<br /><br />dear friends -<br /><br />the other day i was walking by my garden and all of a sudden it hit me: this is starting to look like the garden i had always dreamed of! a little wild and chaotic, with lots of flowers in lots of colours, contained yet natural.<br /><br />it was really touching because this imagined garden was one of those dreams that i hadn't been very sure would come true. it seemed quite distant, and a little impossible. i'm no great gardener, and i am really not very good at being the slow, steady maintenance person that a garden really needs. and yet, here it is:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/1600/foxglove.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/492/1604/320/foxglove.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br />so ... it's so much about dreams. i think we often don't realize that. for example, i'll ask a client, "it looks like you're not happy with where you're at right now. where would you rather be? what would your life look like if you were happier?" sometimes people find that question hard to answer. but then, a little later, they might say something like, "i look at marcia and don - they have a life! how come i don't have a life?" that is the dream, that's the kernel of the dream. we can then carefully make room for that dream, weed around it like around a precious little plant we just found in the garden, make sure it gets the sun and shade it needs, that it gets the right amount of water and nutrients. actually, it's surprising to see that most dreams, once discovered and nurtured even a little bit, are quite resilient.<br /><br />if there's anyone you know who needs to have their dreams nurtured, please tell them that some dreams really can come true. tell them about the dreams that have come true for you. and if they're interested in more, i'd be happy to have a chat with them. i'm always there for a <a href="http://www.moritherapy.com/contact.html">phone call or an email</a>.<br /><br />here is someone who followed his dreams: ken walker was already quite happy in his job where he helped people getting out of the morass of poverty. but he had made a lifetime study of happiness and knew that there was more for him. he quit his job and became the happiness guy. today he helps people discover how they can be happier right now. he'll be our guest next week at our fireside chats, a round of friendly, informal discussions at <a href="http://asacredspace.ca">sacred space</a> at 27 west pender street (across from tinseltown). here are the times and dates:<br /><br />fireside chat topics<br /><br />wednesday, june 21 - guest night: meet ken walker, <a href="http://www.thehappinessguy.com/aboutHG.php">the happiness guy</a>!<br />wednesday, june 28 - everyday intuition<br />wednesday, july 5 - "but i'm not an artist!" - and being creative anyway<br />wednesday, july 12 - the many forms of prayer<br />wednesday, july 19 - talismans - sacred objects<br /><br />two other events i'm organizing at sacred space are<br /><br />bloggers' night on monday, june 19, at 6:30 - meet a bunch of people who're as much into blogging as i am!<br /><br />pagan coffee meetup - june 30, 7:00. meet other people who are curious about things pagan!<br /><br />both these events happen at sacred space, 27 west pender street.isabella morihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01150933640442379951noreply@blogger.com0